I have always been a person who likes to show my best side. I'd love you to come to my house, but please give me a bit of notice so I can clean. I'd love to have a spontaneous lunch with you, but oh I hope I'm wearing something cute and smell nice. I also do not like to be late, its just bad manners.
Tonight I felt as if God tested these insecurities in the funniest way. I was 13 hours into a road trip with my family. We had 40 minutes to go before we were home. That last stretch of road where you dare not look in the backseat because your car is so unrecognizable. It tells the story of three children entertaining themselves for an entire day in the car. There are abandoned coats and shoes, favorite stuffed animals, leapster games, food wrappers, American Girl doll clothes. I had just updated my Facebook status "my car is a traveling trash dump." Bart was driving and I decided to do my daily check of my favorite blogs to pass the time. My favorite blog of all is written by Stephanie Nielson. You can read about her and her inspirational story here:
nieniedialogues or you can click on her cute blue typewriter on my sidebar. I started reading Stephanie's blog about 3 years ago, before her accident (again, read her blog). It was her who inspired me to start my own blog, both to satisfy my desire to write and to document day to day events for my family. I am inspired daily by fellow stay-at-home moms who blog and Stephanie was the start of that for me.
Back to tonight - so we're in the car blah, blah, blah. I click on Stephanie's blog and I read that she is speaking tonight 5 minutes away from my house. Yippee! Problem - I am 40 minutes away and she starts speaking in 15 minutes. I am crushed. Bart knows that I am crushed. He speeds up (still being safe of course.) I tell him that there is no way I can go see her speak looking like this. I look like I have been in the car for 13 hours. And I know you know what I mean. This is what people do on road trips: they wear yoga pants, they put their hair in a hair clip, they wear their glasses, they pick that mysterious thing on their face, their winter coat is covered in lint from the unrecognizable backseat mentioned above, they smell like a McDonalds cheeseburger that they truly hate but gave into a few miles back after being convinced by the three children also mentioned above. This was me - traveling down the road to meet someone who has inspired me smelling like a cheeseburger, with even my toothbrush packed above in the roof-top carrier. Bart (my own personal Mr. Nielson, again read her blog) tells me that I must go hear her speak. I love him for knowing how important it was to me. He drops me off and runs home to put the kiddos in bed, planning to return to pick me up.
I arrive late, of course, as Mr. Nielson is introduced. Around me the men are wearing suits and the women all look lovely. You remember how I am looking. I listen to him tell their story that is familiar to me. He breaks down a few times, particularly when he talks about Stephanie, and he talks about his faith. Its amazing. And then Stephanie speaks and it is as if I am listening to a friend I have known for a long time. She is a child of God, a wife and a mother and in that we are the same. She talks about how she knows she is beautiful - and she truly is. When I met her after, I felt honored to tell her how much her stories meant to me and she was so welcoming to my well-traveled yoga pant wearing self.
It was a peaceful and faith-filled way to close the Thanksgiving weekend (more on the rest of the weekend tomorrow.) And here is a pic of me and Stephanie:
P.S. As a side note, Caroline and I were watching the movie Titanic this weekend (we took a 15 minute break during the steamy parts!), and there was an old church hymn sung in the movie that I have always loved but never knew the name of. Its one of my favorite scenes in the movie. Tonight Christian talked about the hymn and we sang all 5 verses of it after they were done speaking. Its Nearer Thy God to Thee. Next to me was another follower of Stephanie's blog and with her singing harmony, we sounded like the scene from the movie (her much, much better than me!) She graciously gave me a ride home even though we had just met and I thank her so much! Not a coincidence that this song came up tonight, just another God-given moment.